What sparked this theme this time have been the images I’ve made for my digital art class. They are images that I’ve worked hard to render the final results for. It has undoubtedly made me ask some questions about the process of making art with a computer and the difference I feel from making art in the traditional, non-digital methods.

These questions have led me to some predictable and some surprising thoughts that I’ve found to ring true for me: (your own experiences may be different…)

1. Making art with a computer is a results-driven process. It is about the final image. This contrasts with what originally drew me to make art initially. Drawing, printmaking, and sculpture are not necessarily about the results (though getting a good image is always a nice bonus) – but about the process itself. Drawing is more about seeing and observing than about getting an exact representation on paper. Sculpture is about playing with mud. And printmaking – well, I just love the smell of ink, the feel of good 100% rag paper, and turning that press.
2. What I see on the computer is NOT always what I get, as in: “Wow that looked sooo good on the monitor but what the heck happened to the mid-range???” It’s a frustrating struggle to reconcile what I see on the monitor with the final 2-dimensional tangible result on paper. I experienced that frustration with my final print project.
3. The marks made with a computer are usually a reflection of the results I am after and a good indication of how well I know the application. The marks made with drawing, painting, and sculpture are usually a reflection of my current state of mind. A confident line is markedly different from a hesitant one.
4. Making art with a computer is usually a solitary process. Contrary to popular stereotypes, there are a number of traditional media that lend themselves to working among peers. Printmaking is a wonderful example. Many printmakers who don’t own their own press will usually join a print studio, where working in a group is common. Camaraderie is what I miss the most. Drawing from life is another example. Most artists will draw with groups and though most of the time is spent concentrating on drawing, those breaks can lead to some pretty interesting conversations. When was the last time you made digital art in a group? (Lab time in class does not count!)
5. It’s much easier to carry a sketch book than a computer regardless of how light the laptop is. Because after all, what happens when the battery dies and there are no electric outlets in the middle of the campground?
6. Computers make me swear. A LOT!
7. I really miss making art the traditional way.

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Sunset is an angel weeping
Holding out a bloody sword
No matter how I squint I cannot
Make out what it’s pointing toward
Sometimes you feel like you live too long
Days drip slowly on the page
You catch yourself
Pacing the cage

And here is my visual interpretation:

(Click on the image to see a LARGE version.)

And here is Bruce Cockburn’s song on YouTube with not so very good photography but it’s worth listening to the song!

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Here are four versions of what I call: Diemos in the Sky with Catnip (or High)

(Yes, this cat is a real cat.)

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This past summer I also spent some time making sculpture, something I had not done for an even longer time than drawing. My transition from the “old media” / non-digital / traditional forms of art making happened drastically. It occurred when I moved from Santa Fe to the Bay Area in 2000.

I can cite many reasons as to how and why this transition was so drastic. However, probably the biggest reason of all was that I poured all my energy and resources into learning a new art form. It was this thing called the world wide web.

However, my love for the old media / non-digital art form continues.

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I love our car radio. Though I rolled my eyes when the car salesman was trying to talk us into buying the car because of it, I now admit, it was worth his talking us into it. (For the record, we wanted a manual car, and the awesome stereo system happened to be in the only manual car they had.) It plays mp3s and has 6 cd slots, and if I knew more about the bells and whistles, I would spell it out for you. But I don’t.

All I know is that I get pure pleasure out of driving to and from school with my music in full blast and me singing along with it.

It took me a while to figure out that NPR news isn’t exactly the most happy listening. Now, because my head is SO FULL OF STUFF from school and I can’t possibly fill it anymore with things like politics and news and the latest death toll in Iraq, happy time is all about SINGING in the car with our fancy stereo system.

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But for balance, I need to ask, when do I love my computer?

• When it works
• When it plays Pandora (I LOVE PANDORA!)
• When it pays our bills – ok, I pay the bills, but the computer lets me do it conveniently
• When I can balance our checkbooks with the click of the Update button in Quicken
• When I can communicate with my cousin in the Philippines in real time, especially when I’m up late at night writing this and she’s at work seeing that my yahoo account is active and can IM me.
• When I can make websites look pretty, like this. (I don’t think Jeff would like me calling his website pretty, but there you have it.)

I’m sure I can sit here and continue to make this list. Ultimately, there is something that compels me to continue to create on a computer, despite its frustrations. Maybe that’s the key – the act of being able to create on a computer. At heart, I am a creator, an artist (I still feel uncomfortable using that word, but that’s for another post).

The computer has become my medium. Maybe I should put that on the list.

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My husband and I have been dealing with technology problems of late. It started with his 7-year old PC box just dying – you know, when you hit that button and the windows logo should appear, but all you get is a black screen with a message that says, “Windows cannot read from the drive” – that sucks.

What sucked even more was my panic at realizing that we were using his machine as a backup for all our digital images. Images that went back to 2000. Fortunately, I had the good sense to have additional CD backups, and then I remembered the external hard drive we were using for my backups, and I thought – we’re covered.

I spent that evening trying to locate images from the external drive. A big sigh of relief, until several days later when I tried to access the images that I restored. Many of the images were giving me messages that said, “Drawing failed” or “Image is corrupt”. BIG SCREAM!

Of particular sentimental value were the pictures from our trip to New Mexico (*sigh* I still miss New Mexico *sigh*). Though I uploaded the best photos onto my Flickr account, they were not high resolution files.

This particular incident is just but one account of my recent frustrations. I believe I may have already written about others.

The big question I need to ask myself, however, is why do I continue to trust that technology will always work, and why oh why do I get so violently upset when it doesn’t???

Man, I need to lighten up!

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It’s such a treat to just be able to sit for the rare two hours that I don’t seem to have anymore to just have my brain absorbed by something other than a computer screen. Not have to think, not have to move, not do much of anything. Get completely lost.

Why do I love that so much?

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But on occasion, I’ll hear a news item that catches my attention, often making me ask myself, is this really good for me to listen to this? Is it really making me feel better about my life? Or the world in general. Because quite often I find that I am disgusted with the world, and that does not bode well for my general mood.

I should try shutting off the radio in the mornings – at least wait until I’ve had my cup of tea.

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Yes, these are the moments when I want to hurl my machine out the window. These are the times when technology completely drives me mad, when I waste more time trying to make technology work than actually have technology work for me!!

I know my blood is curdling right now. And the irony of this situation is that at this time I would normally be out on a hike, away from media and technology, away from frustration, away from this sometimes non-sensical mode of – I don’t even have the words right now. I AM SO MAD!

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