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Liberating thoughts

Robert Fritz writes in his book, Creating:

It doesn’t matter what you think of yourself, and what you think of yourself will have no impact on your creative process.

He continues:

A focus on self-esteem can actually hold people back from being effective at creating what they want…

…Is it useful to discover what you think of yourself? Perhaps. Do you need to work on your opinion of yourself? NO. Will you hold yourself back if you do not entirely like yourself? NO. Is it wise to pursue self-esteem training or self-enhancement techniques? NO. In fact those practices may even work against you because they can drive your focus more and more inward. This makes it harder for you to create what you want to create. Since you are not your creations, what real difference does your self-opinion make in the creative process? NONE, SINCE YOU ARE SEPARATE FROM YOUR CREATIONS.”

On separation:

You are separate from the raw materials of your life, which includes your circumstances, your expereiences, your feelings, your opinions, your desires, your past, and your present. Your life is like a work in progress, but it will be hard to move with the same ease in your life that painters have, as they move toward and away from their canvases with their brushes loaded with paint, if you can only stand close to yourself. Most people stand so close to themselves that they often confuse who they are with what they have done, are doing, or might do in the future.

That’s me. Guilty as charged.

I’ve spent most of my time in the Bay Area fighting the urge to define my life based on my job (or lack thereof at times), or my career (or lack thereof at times), or my possessions (or lack thereof at times).

I have forgotten more often than I care to admit that I am not my job. I am not my career, nor my salary (or lack thereof at times). I ask myself often why it is that I have lost my sense of self here in California, and yet when I lived in New Mexico with very little money and possesions, I felt more sure of myself.

And yet, Robert Fritz says in his book: “It doesn’t matter.”

Oddly enough, not only do I have to agree, but I feel strangely liberated.


The Universe will give you exactly what you want (and/or need)

I am a true believer of this statement: the universe/life/the almighty/whatever you want to call it, has given me exactly what I’ve asked for and what I’ve needed. The consequences are another matter. This brings me to the two points I want to make in this post:

  1. Be specific about what you want.
  2. Be careful what you ask for, because you will get it.

Know exactly what you want.

I’ve struggled with this since I moved to the Bay Area in 2000. It’s a long time to struggle, and the irony of this situation is that I was not always this vague.

Santa Fe Etching Club 1994 Many (many!) years ago, as a fresh-faced college graduate with an environmental studies and art degree, I decided that I would pursue a career as an artist. So, I determined I needed to work for an artist and learn as much as I could from that person.

I packed my belongings in my backpack, bought a one-way plane ticket to Santa Fe, NM and headed west to immerse myself in the art world, surround myself with artists, and live like an artist.

(There I am in 1994, with the Santa Fe Etching Club in what used to be Jo Basiste/Eli Levin’s porch off his studio on Camino Don Miguel near Canyon Road. Jo sold the home/studio he built and lived in for decades for a really large sum of money – a very large sum – several years ago. I’m the fresh-faced, recent college grad in the overalls, trying to be an artist. Hah! More on the club below.)

I was telling the universe: I want to be an artist. I was not vague about my desires.

The universe provided. Somehow, events occurred, providence intervened, and for six years, I found myself doing exactly what I set out to do.

Sculpture by Star Liana YorkI found work as an assistant to Star Liana York, a prominent sculptor in the southwest. She showed me that not only was it possible to not starve as an artist, but that one could truly LIVE a good life as an artist. (That’s one of her sculptures on the right, and my first Star Liana York work of art!)

She introduced me to other successful artists, each one having found and having made their own paths.

And through the American Women Artists, a non-profit organization that Star was a founding member of, and for which I also worked in the years I lived in Santa Fe, I met some incredible women.

I worked closely and became friends with these women, including Sherrie McGraw, Joan Potter, and Donna Howell-Sickles. I learned from them, traveled to Italy with them, and in general, had a blast!

Santa Fe Etching Club in 2000Through another act of Providence, I found the Santa Fe Etching Club and printed for six years with Jo Basiste (Eli Levin), Elizabeth Cook Romero, William Gonzales, Joe Becker, and Norma Evans. These artists were just as passionate about their work.

(Here’s the club in 2000 before I left, inside Jo’s studio with the ancient press. The club was a bit smaller from the 1994 group.)

We met every week to make prints, eat dessert, and tell dirty jokes in Jo’s studio. It was a wonder we got any work done. I learned just as much from them about the reality of making art and making a living.

(I’ve promised them a website for years now and I will get it up — I’ve even registered the domains! The club really deserves a website considering it’s one of the longest running art clubs in Santa Fe, or Jo claims it is.)

After six years of living and loving life in Santa Fe, I decided I needed to leave. I learned as much as I could from the people and the place and it was time to move on.

(Santa Fe is also a very small town and when I lived there, it had a population of 60,000. It became almost funny – ha ha – running into the same ex-boyfriends over and over again in the grocery store…)

But I digress. I left Santa Fe because it was time to learn some new lessons. This leads me to my second point.

Be careful what you ask for – because you will get it.

I had so much fun in New Mexico. The people, the land, the nostalgia can sometimes distract me from what I need to do in California. (I asked for some new lessons – and apparently, I’m getting them!)

My packed Toyota heading to CaliforniaThe decision to move was not a difficult one. I was excited about the prospect of change and the new adventure.

The place to move to was somewhat random – I had spent one weekend in San Francisco the previous year. I liked what I saw and I knew of an old college friend who lived there. He and his wife seemed to like it.

However, they warned me that the rental market was a tough one (and in 2000, it really was tough). That didn’t faze me and even though I had my dog, I had an overwhelming confidence that everything was going to work out just fine.

One month before I scheduled myself to leave Santa Fe, I still had no apartment lined up in the Bay Area nor did I have a job. Still I was not worried. I truly felt that it would all work out – and sitting here remembering all this and writing about it now, I wonder where that confidence came from? I deeply felt and understood that the universe would provide. After my experiences in Santa Fe, I had no reason to doubt that.

Two weeks before leaving New Mexico, my etching buddy Norma told me of her wonderful friend Julie who had an apartment in the Oakland hills that would be vacant, and was I interested? “Oh”, she said to me, “and Julie boards dogs for a living”. I smiled. Once again, the universe gave me exactly what I wanted.

Even the job that I had when I first came to the Bay Area was exactly what I needed to make my transition. It did not work out but it was what I NEEDED at the time. Providence was still there.

So, I arrived in the Bay Area, and the universe provided. But…

Was I not prepared for the consequences of receiving these gifts from the universe?

Was I careless with my request? Was I vague? Am I still?

By the look and feel of it, the answers to the questions above are yes.

I have exactly what I want and what I need, but I am struggling with the consequences of these gifts.

Ahh, it’s 2 AM, and I must sleep now. Then off to Tahoe I go with my wonderful husband and very good friends. These are the gifts I do not struggle with.

But I promise to continue sorting through these thoughts. Because I must know exactly what I want so that the universe can provide accordingly.


Thinking big in 2007 & beyond

This site is really about the ability to realize my dreams – to think about the possibilities, ALL the possibilities and then to see what happens when I focus my energies toward realizing these possibilities.

In many ways, Creative Path Studio was a long time coming. I have been thinking about creating a business for while now – to create my own path in life. There’s so much more I want to do and the creation of this site, this business, this experiment, is the vehicle to allow me to do that.

I should not be surprised that my goals for this business are coming to fruition. I have other goals that I need to articulate. Writing them down forces me to think about the path I need to take to get there.

Some of my goals include:

  • creating Word Press themes and sharing them
  • create a site for santafe-etching.com
  • interview artists and designers (I have several folks in mind)
  • become an Illustrator and Photoshop guru
  • draw, draw, draw
  • continue to think BIG, and to think of all the possibilities
  • find the balance and really enjoy life

Creative Path Studio is just as much about experimentation as it is about creativity. It is about living a life worth living.


Water Buffalos Make the Best Gift!!

Although I could argue that the best gift is really a BMW F650 GS (for me), the video I saw today convinced me otherwise. All kidding aside, this video put life into much needed perspective – including how indulgent and luxurious a BMW F650 GS really is.

Robert Thompson, the man who created the short film, is a violinist living in China with his wife. He apparently grew up in the awesome Maxwell Park neighborhood of Oakland, where Jon and I bought our house a couple of years ago. Actually, a neighbor from the Maxwell Park listserve gets the credit for posting the link. In the midst of the negative news that often floods our listserve, she wanted to share a positive, uplifting story.

Be prepared to cry:

4 Generations Video


Manifesting your potential

It’s very obvious to me when I’m not living up to my potential. I become irritable, restless, and easily bored. I start feeling like an automaton, reflexively reacting to the routines of my daily schedule. Day in day out every week every month every year.

Then one day it dawns on me that six years have flown by. And with it comes the sinking feeling that somehow I’ve missed my boat. Arggh!!

What did I do about it?

I googled for the answer. (Don’t you?)

I found a wonderful site called Manifest Your Potential, a site that offers a number of valuable tools to help the seeker find answers to their questions.

In the game of life, winning or losing is a matter of perspective

Much of their material is common sense to me. For instance, I believe in their premise that life does not have to be a game based on winning or losing. It’s about choosing to create your own destiny. It’s about deciding that you can be an active participant in your own life, that fate does not decide for you.

I chose to move to Santa Fe after college, just as I chose to move to the Bay Area six years ago. Of course, it helps to make informed choices, and a key ingredient to making smart choices for yourself is to KNOW yourself.

Self discovery. I’m a big fan.